A Hard Road to Travel

Sometimes the pain of life is overwhelming. My soul longs for it's eternal home and I am hidden behind a dark veil that seems will never lift. A month has passed with many hard lessons learned and more valleys than mountains.  There is a constant state of fatigue and an overwhelming sense of uselessness.  What is the point of showing the world His joy when I cannot even find it myself?  Is joy a thing that can only be a experienced every so often and only in fleeting glances? The answer that my soul longs for is "no". Sorrow will only last for a night but joy will come in the morning.  Yet this has been a long night for my soul. I am beginning to see a glimpse of the sun on the horizon but only a few rays.  Soon it will be fully risen and life will be once again colored with His light. But through it all, I know that He has never left me. Through it all, He has been standing right beside me though I was not conscious of it. I am never alone, no matter what my feelings tell me. And I live in that truth, in spite of it all.